Best.thing.ever.

brittneey asked: Don't say that :( Someone WILL fall in love with you, and see the beauty that you carry my dear. You're still young; you are not out of time.

I am crying, I can’t even. I know that I’m young but I just feel like I’m going to scare anyone who gets close enough to me away.

sometimes you have to fall off the earth to realize its there.

Well, I guess I’m considered pretty huge then.

alyssaaarenee365:

Day 36-February 5, 2010

If I am a clock, then you are the time. I’m patiently waiting and you’re out of line.

All you get today is a picture of me because I don’t have anything to take a picture of and I don’t feel inspired to take a picture of anything else, plus I really like this picture, I’m leaving for San Antonio and I am super stoked, I finally get to eat and go grocery shopping, today was a decent day, I was a couple minutes late to physics but I still got there before the professor which is good, I’m still kicking ass and taking names in that class so yay, came home for my break and packed all my dirty clothes to take home to wash, ochem was super boring as always, and now I’m home about to leave. I’m taking my mom out to eat at Olive Garden tonight, I’m pretty happy right now :]

 Smile Friday the “My eyes look weird but I like this picture” edition.

Follow Friday-short-please-don’t-get-offended-if-you’re-not-on-this version.

Crushes:
1. http://-seaniieee.tumblr.com/
2. http://brittneey.tumblr.com/
3. http://nickiephresh.tumblr.com/
4. http://stephenjames.tumblr.com/
5. http://killmoves.tumblr.com/
6. http://andreaohhh.tumblr.com/
7. http://erichalvorsen.tumblr.com/
8. http://d-rizzle.tumblr.com/
9. http://a-twizzler.tumblr.com/

Other:

http://justinjgarza.tumblr.com/
http://sharoooon.tumblr.com/
http://-andrealynn.tumblr.com/
http://jenncoco.tumblr.com/
http://katerlyn.tumblr.com/
http://sarahwerts.tumblr.com/
http://hllyhlvrsn.tumblr.com/
http://coourtneyisamazing.tumblr.com/
http://dannnixo.tumblr.com/
http://fuckyeahmonaco.tumblr.com/

dannnixo:

Alyssa - sweetest girl ever, hands down. If you ever want someone who can relate to you in more than one way and will always have something nice to say, she’s your girl.

 Awww I love you :]

I don’t like arguments. I don’t like hurting other people’s feelings. I let myself get walked all over to benefit the other person because I don’t believe that I deserve better. I mean, I know it somewhere deep down but that’s just not enough. I feel that I deserve to be hurt, and so I lay down and let other people hurt me. That’s why I always go for guys with girlfriends/way out of my reach. It sucks being hurt so much, but it’s what I deserve. And it reminds me that I’m alive.

Roommate drama abounds. So basically she texted me saying that the electric bill for the middle of December through the middle of January was a certain amount and I owed a third of that so basically I was just like okay, that’s bullshit since I wasn’t even there and she’s like oh well keeping your food refrigerated takes up most of the electricity and once again I was like okay, I had no food in the refrigerator (and I still don’t but that’s a whole different story). And then she’s like well you never complained about anything before why now? So obviously I was like well it just doesn’t seem fair that I’m going to be paying for something I didn’t even benefit from and she starts like guilt tripping me like “Oh is it fair that I’m the only one who cooks and cleans and does dishes and blahblahblah?” Okay first of all, she is the only one who “does” the dishes, which all she does is rinse them off and stick them in the dishwasher. Secondly, she cooks for herself and Ben. I have to take care of myself. And don’t even get me started on cleaning. Jenn’s been to my apartment, she knows that it hasn’t been cleaned since we moved in. So I was just like no, it’s not fair at all and she’s like “name ONE thing you’ve done to make my life easier” so at this point, I’m sitting in Latin about to burst out in tears because I am a fucking baby and so I was just like “nothing. I’m a horrible person. Forget about the fact that your boyfriend moved in with us and I was perfectly okay with it.” and so she’s like “oh so all you’ve done is let one extra person live here who stays out of your way and pays a third of the electricity bill.” So I had to leave my classroom because I started crying and I called my mom and told her everything that was going on and she was like just go to the bathroom, clean yourself up, regain your composure, you need to be in class. So I do that and turn off my phone and of course my teacher calls on me like right when I sit down and my voice was still shaky and everything so I just sounded like I was about to cry which I obviously was and everyone just flat out stared at me. It was the worst thing ever. So after class I went to the library and I texted Jenn, Brittney, Nickie, and Ayelet to help me because I was trying to get work done but I was crying and trying to hide it from all the people around me but it just got to be too much so I went and cried in the bathroom for a while and then I started talking to Brittney which helped alot and then Nickie and Jenn gradually too while I was in the library and then Ayelet texted me during chemistry but she still helped.

So basically, I am a sensitive doormat who can be guilt tripped into almost anything.

Semi-Charmed Life-Third Eye Blind

I want something else to get me through this

Fear Of Flying-A Rocket To The Moon

Do you know how long it takes before we die?

Whenever Sean sees other people’s family portraits, he’ll take a picture of it on his phone and then set that as his background for a couple weeks.

brittneey:

dianaxstatus:

alyssaaarenee:

Well this worked out pretty well until my internet decided to disconnect :/

ahaha. you get on when i get off.

I see me!  Haha.

 Haha yay! That was interesting…

I don’t understand once again if it means like this year coming up or this past year so whatever I’m just going to do both (not in great detail).

Plans so far for 2010 are pretty scarce, I’m more of a live day to day kind of person. AP Tour on March 20 in Austin, San Antonio Warped, hopefully visiting Jenn in Arizona and going to Pomona Warped, def going to The Maine’s tour(s?) whenever those come around, turning 20 in July. Other than that, I don’t know yet.

This past year: March 20-AP Tour in Dallas, met most of The Maine. April 17-Believers Never Die, second time seeing FOB, first time seeing ATL and Cobra. Was supposed to go to Warped but that didn’t happen, Brittney had Joel from This Century, Justin and Eric from A Rocket To The Moon, and John from The Maine talk to me on the phone though which was beyond amazing. Turned 19 in July. August 5-What Happens In Vegas, officially fell in love with The Summer Set and Eye Alaska, one of the worst days of the year for various reasons. Halloween-GK and OP Tour, met Pat and Eric, such a disappointing night but expected too much out of it. December 27-Unsilent Night, met Jenn, best day of 2009 hands down. January 23-Disco Curtis/FTSK, talked to alot of band guys, made new friends, tons of fun.

The highlights of my life are always shows. I like it that way.

Yeah I’m not so good with the “in great detail” thing but here we go. Last Tuesday was the first day of the semester, and Wednesday through Friday were basically just typical school days, not much to say about that, then Jenn came to visit on Friday night and we went to eat at the Potato Shack which is soooo freaking good and I’m craving it again, while we were there Shayla convinced her to go to the Disco Curtis show in Austin (I had been telling her all day that I wanted to go too), Saturday, Jenn’s car got towed, we went to Austin and saw Disco Curtis, talked to them, Jeremiah, Micah, and Kade, went to dinner with DC, Jeremiah, and Micah, stayed at Shayla’s, drove back on Sunday, yesterday and today were basically just regular school days.